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09/02/2003: "Splenda-iferous!"
Okay so I have to confess something...isn't that what blogs are for???
I'm an off-the-wagon lowcarb eater and I've been on a sugar binge for the better part of a month now.
and I feel like crap! I may not be diabetic but I'm damn close. Actually I haven't been tested in a while but I go back to the doc the first week of October and I know I'm going to have to ask to be tested because my blood sugar has NOT been in a good place for a while now. I can feel it.
I guess that the quote about not learning from the past and being destined to repeat it is especially true in my case. This is a HARD addiction to break!
I know I feel awful when I eat sugar
I know that I feel better when my blood sugar is under control and I'm not spinning all over the place with headaches and cold sweats.
I know that I'm healthier and have much more energy when my carb levels are low
So why the hell do I keep sabotaging myself????
I truly am a sugar addict, and I can be pretty damned lazy when it comes to taking care of myself. I know that a lot of my eating is emotional. I hate this out of control feeling, it really sucks.
I really don't mind eating lowcarb. I am a carnivore, I love veggies, cheeses, most meats, whole grains in moderation. I think that one of my downfalls is that I don't prepare enough ahead of time and so I make bad food choices when I'm out working. Working for a catering company doesn't help much either, for what that's worth. Looking temptation in the face and resisting on a regular basis is not something I'm good at.
I've felt awful the last week and I know what I need to do. I need to get off my lazy butt and take charge of my health and my diet. I need to look at my children and remind myself that I need to stay healthy and live a long life for them. I need to quit making excuses and just do it.
Now where did I put that box of Splenda?...
